Below are the 11 most recent journal entries recorded in ashesawesome's LiveJournal:

Thursday, February 23rd, 2006
8:32 pm	Romano's so, how has life been treating you? oh fine, thanks. apparently, they want to make me a crew trainer and i am going to be getting a raise sometime in the near future. at least, that is what miriam said. well, anyway,if that doesn't happen by at least the middle of March, i am outta there! well, school is going well and this weekend at hector's hopefully i will be able to catch up on hw and stuff. today i went to this "thing" at San Juaquin Valley College. it was long and apparently my parents make too much money for me to get any financial aid, which is the ost bullshit i have ever heard in my life! anyway, after that my mother and i were cruising around and just driving,.. enjoying ourselves "There's a Macaroni Grill MOM!!!" so we ate at the macaroni grill tonight for dinner. it was so awesome and the food was incredible.. my all-time favorite place to eat at! i was so jazzed! i had the biggest smile ever.. what made it better? we had this very cute waiter named Derrick. he was a really eye-catcher and all that. and for those of you who have ever bee to the macaroni grill, you know that they write thier name on the placemat and leave crayons there for you to color the table. well, at the end of our meal, my mother and i got bored and we were coloring and i started writing these hearts all around his name and i wrote i heart you and then, ashley & Derrick=love and derrick is cute and all that. haha it was the funniest thing i have ever seen in my life. here is the best part: my mother and i waited behind these "wall things" and waited for him to clear the table. he started laughing and he showed it to this girl and then his guy friend and then called the head manager over. my mother and i were laughing so hard, we could have died! it is just "another reason to love the macaroni grill" Current Mood: amused Current Music: O Shelia! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 15th, 2006
9:12 pm	i'm hating it let's see. life? well let's start where i just ended. work. think of like evrything bad and there you go. this was probably one of the worst working days of my life. it was horrible. utterly awful. ok. i got to work on time and they threw me in the back. yes! i was happy. then steve showed up at two. i was scheduled at one. at least i had one happy hour before he got there. well, i DID get my breaks on time today and whatnot but we have a new manager her name is Griselma. (no, that is not a typo)she seemed ok.. and then i was downstairs just talking .. on my break, they cant write me up for that. well then she came down and was yelling at the boy i was talking to telling himhow "when she was a crew member....." she could do this and that. whatever. then when i went back upstairs, i heard her telling ms. wonderful, herself(teresa) that she needed to treat her with respect and that she knew that she didnt like her and that she was tired of EVERYONE treating her bad just "because she is new" after all, she is one of the "nicest managers you could ever work with" and she was looking at me the whole time. and i just flashed her this really big smile and told her well, i know you aint talking to me because i have been on a break this whole time. then she went on and on and i was like "generalizations!!!" (sing-song) and i dont really think i am on her good side. i'm really a terrible human being. and steve. *sigh* well. today my dwarer broke. i dunno what happened but it wouldnt close and you cant take orders when its closed. we had this mad rush of people come in because today was the CIF game at the school. apparently it was my faut even though it was broken before i got to the retgister and then he gives me this look. then he (what an idiot) decides to unplug the computer. then the system shut down and i was like "ooooooooo steve broke it!" and he just looked at me and kept blinking and was all "i dont need your attitude right now." and i told him "im not giving you an attitude buddy." "it sure as hell seems like it." whatever. there is more of course. like today as soon as he got to work he told me "we arent gonna have any problems today right ashley?" no response. does he think he is my teacher or something? i just really can't stand him. he is such bad word. ok there are a total of three people that i actually love to work with at store 1558. and those people are joe, denise, and richard. joe transfered. denise is transfering. today was probably her last day. so all i have ledt is richard and seeing how richard is on the overnight shift. i usually only work with him for about an hour, if that. so avoid mcd's as much as you can. at least mine. we closed the other day due to a sewage leak. so yea.. if you want to put your health and life at risk, go ahead and eat there. the new job hunt begins. and we all know that job hunting is sucha bitch! so please wish me luck! yea it is out there. i am quitting and i dont want to go back. i hate it. not it, not the job just one particular person. i think i get along well with everyone honestly, but there is always that ONE person who has to go and ruin everything. so i sing to myself, and try to talk myself down. i wanted to walk out tonight. but i thought "car, NY, wicked... " ok, it'll be alright. and i just sing to myself .. alot. (besides my singing bugs the hell out of steve, but makes me feel better so i do it even more. why not kill two birds with one stone?) Valentine's Day: amazing. i'll just leave it at that. oh and i got the greatest gifts ever, but still find it the lamest holidayin the world. school: good. speaking of school i saw mrs. baxter today and she said hi to me! isnt it neat!? church: the building is officialy ours. yes, we just have to deal with firproof doors and things like paint now! yay! lately things have been kinda spiraling out of control. i dont know how i feel, WHAT to feel, or why i feel it. all i know is that there is this feeling inside me like something is missing and i dont know what it is. im falling. Current Mood: crushed Current Music: i will survive--disco (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, January 27th, 2006
1:11 pm	ok so here we go, i should be working on my outline but i am not and tonight i think i am hanging out with zach and leeann and we are supposed to do this "winter formal thing" tonight. so that should be interesting. life? at this moment, is pretty good. work is going well, and if i remember correctly, you get a raise after 6 mos of work, so that is pretty cool, as long as they (hopefully) do not count the part where i quit. because then i would have to wait until May. oh!!! omG! my mother and i were talking earlier and yea! ok lets take this one step at a time before i get too excited and get ahead of myself and you are unable to understand what is going on.. my neighbor sold their car. they did not mean to, it just sorta happened. it was weird! some people came and knocked on their door and asked them if they wanted to sell their car. no for sale sign, or anything, but anyway, they sold it to these people! well my neighbor's brother buys used cars, fixes 'em up (he has ties with garages) and then he sells them at auctions. anyway, he is really "smart" when it comes to cars, and the cars at these auctions are inexpensive. anyway, this is what I'm thinkin': go buy a car at the end of April, or beginning of May. This was a plan of mine anyway, but this way, i wont have to deal with a stupid car payment and insurance at the same time. Besides, i am sure that the insurance alone is gonna break me since the accident and everything. And because i am "in" with someone who is a regular there, i wont get ripped off! isn't it so great! finally things are looking up! so i have quite a bit of money in my savings account and my NY trip is already almost paid off! i paid for my stupid ticket today. $288 down the drain and of course, let's not forget the traffic school i have to pay for! but at this moment my spirits are really high! what else? what else? school i think is going well, work is good,... oh yea!! another thing!!! WE GOT IT! the church that has been living in my garage for the last three years is heading out! i mean, don't get me wrong, i love my church and everyone in it, but it is hard to have church in your own house. and this is something we have been praying for for a long time now. and here we are!!! WE HAVE FOUND A BUILDING! It is all very exciting! so now my dad and Pastor Charles just have to deal with the "legalities" of it. so that is going well. then of course, there are always "those" problems that go along with everyday life, but there is good news and that is that i think i know what the hell is wrong with me! so i'm pretty glad about that! my parents are off my case about little things and school is going well .. oh yea,.. reluctantly, i have decided that i am not going to be in the little shop of horrors. i really wanted to, but things have come up and battles within my head have brought me to this decision. Mainly: i highly doubt that i will be able to do my senior project, keep my job, do all my "regular" homework, sleep, and have some type of a social life if i do this. During the Impossible Years, i was dying with going to work and being in the play and i was always irritable and such.. so this is probably the best thing to do. Besides, it also frees me up for April 1st. right dear? Current Mood: hungry Current Music: Queen (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 7th, 2006
11:28 am	i had the greatest dream ever last night! wowie! wow!wow! anyway, besides that, things are going well and i am always smiling to myself for it.. i got suspended yesterday for opening the door for the FedEx man when he brought us our stuff.. 2 working days.. but then it all MAGICALLY got squared away and i am working today. they think it is like punishment, but in fact its really like a reward, hey! you just got yourself a day off! yay! anyway, i would care had i liked/respected the manager i was working with last night, but i didn't so.. i got on the internet today because i had to do some scholarship stuff, but then my parents left and i am here without all their tax information, whatever. well everything in the world is right and i am happy beyond belief and i smile to myself all the time.. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 31st, 2005
10:20 pm	here is the dealio ok hahaha anyway, things have been going well... school:well, church:well, drama:well, friends:well, boys:?? whoever really knows?? christmas:well, work: well.... and that is where it all started.... anyway, once joe(my manager) knew the whole story about the jerk face, he had this "idea" and i was for it, but we all know me, i'm a big chicken and didn't want to do anything, so we never did. but he'd always bring it up and i'd "think" about it.. (but i knew all along that i'd say no) so nothing ever happened. i was scheduled to work on Christmas Eve. and all night i was like,... tonight would be perfect! merry christmas in the morning! anyway, joe once again proposed the idea and i accepted, which is where the story begins. after we punched out, joe had taken an unmarked bag from the basement, it was going to be wasted anyway. so its not like mcd's could get angry at us for "stealing." so yea,.. i was so nervous the way there. we parked a little ways up and all and then we did it. i'll admit it: i was such a chicken about it, but i did it! i poured soda on his car, concentrated soda. well, we were thinking that it would sit over night and that it would be all sticky and caked on by morning. we made a dash for it and my heart was pumping! the adrenaline rush was amazing and nothing i had ever felt before. i never do anything bad or mean to people. i dont like to fuck people over, but oh! it was amazing! the feeling--like nothing i had felt before.im not going to do it again, but im not sorry i did it. well, we drove the long way home and he was like .. i think we are being followed and i was like...."????" he dropped me off at work and the next day was christmas... which was awesome! right matt and beth? i was scheduled to work on christmas and eric, who knew what was going on.. asked me what had happened and i explained it to him and he was like .. thats all you did? and i told him yea... and he was like you are stupid, you should have poured it in the gas tank. psh. i am not THAT mean. well i told him, i guess it must've all blown over because they hadnt called or anything.. and yea. so the next day i was at grandmas celebrating christmas when i get a phone call from joe and he tells me "you need to get down here now. it is an emergency." oh shit. someone got hust. mcdonalds is on fire! those are really the thoughts that went through my mind! omg! then i was like, "i can't i'm outta town." "this is the deputy from the sherriffs office" oh shit. "do you have anything to tell me?" "NO." "don't play stupid with me. do you want to be mature about this or not?" "I GUESS WE POURED SOME SODA ON HIS CAR." "and what else?" "THATS IT." "are you sure?" "YES" "listen here, anything you e-mail has been printed and kept. do you understand you had better knock it off. ... blah blah blah,.." then he gave me his information and all and his hours and that he worked sat-tues. but it was monday! "I AM OUTTA TOWN RIGHT NOW AND WONT BE BACK IN TOWN UNTIL WEDNESDAY." "whenever you get in town, i want to see you at the station." "OK" he hung up. i called joe back. "oh shit." "ok, so what happened?" then he filled me in on everything. apparently, mr. baxter was in his garage wrapping gifts while we did it and "heard us laughing" then he followed us, and got the license plates and did everything else. they washed it off that night.. which also worked out because it was cold that night. oh yea, and they are not pressing charges and they are not going to let my parents know. ~awesome~ ok. so i went to the station tonight and talked to the deputy who was in fact a jerk.. but i would use the other word now.. (if i didnt hate it so much) he was like... why? Why? WHY? like 10,000 times, overexaggerating? yes. but he kept asking me. and then he was like why are you dragging other people into it? and i was like i DONT know. then he was like why would you pour shit all over their car? and wouldnt you be pissed if someone did that to you?(are cops allowed to talk like that?) yes. i would be pissed. "Do you know how many kids they have?" "yes." (7, but what kind of question is that? whether you have 2, 10, or 50 kids, you are gonna be wrapping gifts on christmas eve) "do your parents know?" "no, they are out of town tonight." "what if i showed up on your porch, what would they say?" "theyd ground me from the phone for a week, after a long 'talk'" "oh. .... do you think this is funny?" "no. i showed up right?" "well you have a big smile on you face. so i cant tell if you are taking me serious or not." *tries to refrain from smiling, but i didnt even realize i was doing it* (i cant help it if im naturally happy.) "why did you do it?" "i was being childish and immature." *he nods* "what did you think you were going to accomplish by doing this?" "nothing. i didnt think he was going to come back to me. we'll never date again." then i started to say, i've moved on and all, but i knew he would be like no you havent.. and i was not abou to argue the fact that i was married or anything.. although the thought had crossed my mind. "you better never call, associate with, fight, vandalize,.. etc. anything that has to do with him. do you understand?" "yes." "you are both telling me different things." ??? "matt ...." and i told him the story about amanda and how he made me out to be the liar.. i couldnt care less that he is a cheater, its my good name and dignity that he slaughtered. "next time we hear of anything happening to him, you are the first person we will come into contact with. even if it is not you, we will be on your doorstep." "ok" "tie your shoe, so you dont fall on your face." (he was such a jackass)"thanks for coming out tonight to talk to me." "thanks... for having... me?.." *he got angry at that* "well it was either this, or you could be in jail. we already got in contact with your corporation. and the DA has been notified." "mcdonalds?" "yes. good night." *ties shoe and walks away* "happy new year." so there is the story for you. my parents dont know.. so that is good, and miriam, my manager has not yelled at me,.. and we worked together all dat today. she isnt mad and everyone is happy. but i am bringing in the new year so horribly! someone save me! (i don't care about the spelling errors) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 22nd, 2005
12:04 pm	Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! In May I donated bone marrow to trashcanrider in a life-saving procedure (300 points). Last Wednesday I pulled over and changed cuteovaries's flat tire (15 points). Last Sunday I helped kirby_c05 see the light (8 points). Last week I set mandapanda3288's puppy on fire (-66 points). Last Saturday I had a shoot-out with rival gang lords on the 5 near LA (-76 points). Overall, I've been nice (181 points). For Christmas I deserve an Easy-Bake Oven! Sincerely, ashesawesome Write your letter to Santa! Enter your LJ username: this was really awesome. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 18th, 2005
12:32 pm	ok.. i got my research paper done!!!! *high five to self* i also did not sleep at all the night before and during the peer evaluation, i fell asleep on briana's paper... lol anyway, school is over and i am so glad!!! 6 mos to graduation!!!!!!!! im so excited.. well, yesterday was my last day at hallmark, thank God, although, there are a few people i will miss.. well one really, whatever,.. ok, work today at mcd's *smiles* that is a happy place that i love and im so tired of hearing people say stupid shit about me working there. i'm lovin it! so i have only bought gifts for my siblings and dad, no one else and at zach's i felt kinda stupid, getting gifts and giving any, ESPECIALLY since im the only one with a job. but since i dont have a car, its kinda impossible to go shopping. got paid yesterday! YES!! *brings arm down thusly* but it was like one of the crappiest checks of all time. *glad i left hallmark* i forgot my checkbook on friday at home (along with damn calculator, the one day i really actually needed it) and i had a NY payment due, .. so i will have two payments to make once i get back.. i found my v-day outfit .. good stuff, hot! really, anyway.. hector has yet to call.. *surprise, surprise* and its really starting to bother me now, along with the fact that i went with chris (jones) and eric to the mall and tuesday to do some christmas shopping (and hang with friends, might as well kill two birds with one stone)and i found out that baxter had cheated on me numerous times with different females during our realtionship.. so that led to one of the worst weeks ever.. and yesterday i actually felt better about it (there was also the fact that i quit hallmark, got my paper done, and got a little sleep) and once i got home last night, i was so beat, but i stayed up anyway, til 2 a.m. talking to my dear and loving brother, frankie.. it was so great i love doing that, simply because we've got this "thing" that no one understands not even us, but i love that guy to death.. my parents have kinda mellowed out which is good. and this morning,as i was eating breakfast, linda (pastor's wife) gets a phone call. her son, daughter-in-law and grandson were in an accident. the car is totaled. horrific memories and pain stabbed at my chest as i relived the events that i had encountered in my accident. pastor left immediately. but everything was alright and their 4 month old baby is alright as well. keep them in your prayers.. (or whatever) ok i gota go to work and then SHOP .. but i wish i was gonna go to the spagetti factory, nonetheless, i WILL have a good day today.! much love, kisses, and holiday wishes dear and beloved friends! ~ash (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 13th, 2005
1:14 pm	*heavy sigh* what's new ?? lets see... school is alright and so is work.. both jobs. working two jobs isn't hard, it's just tiresome. and i feel so drained.. emotionally, physically, i just dont know whats going on with myself i guess,.. and apparently no one does. my parents are acting weird because i've "changed" *sigh* sometimes i really dont know what im thinking or doing esecially now. so what's new? hhmmmm.. i guess that's a hard one school stress work stress and family stress are majorly it. thank God i dont have a boyfriend, i'd be more screwed up than i am now.. lol drama club is going well.. yes the one thing in life that would never screw me over! thank god for that too! anyway, despite how strange this blog is, i am doing surprisingly well. i've never been happier, i mean maybe i have, but not in a LONG time and thank you to those people: you know who are. anyway, life is life and i am me.. no changes, not significantly anyway, but i have homework to do and stuff. have an incredible day anyone who reads this! much love! Current Mood: blah (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 28th, 2005
7:58 pm	lets see.. whats new since the last time i wrote in here?? i totaled my car yay me not really and im getting a little thick well my mother said my incentive to wotk out should be to not go on myspace until i do and we all know that would break my heart.. stupid myspace wouldnt let me get on, hence why im here.. the impossible years went really well! yay!! so i have a research paper to do.. two drafts have already been due and i havent even started it!! im so dumb sometimes.. looking forward to tomorrow..... nervous, but looking forward to it nonetheless we got our xmas tree yay! and were gonna decorate it! dad hung the lights outside.. i love xmas.. its great hhmmm... thats all thats new i guess.. Current Mood: accomplished (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 7th, 2005
10:21 pm	so i have a livejournal.. hhhmm.. *daydreams* what to write, what to write.. i dont know how to use this yet, but yeah.. i hop i dont get addicted like i am in myspace, that would suck.. lets see.. today i went to redlands and it was nice to pass by the orange groves and smell em.. mmm yay* well i also went to barnes and noble.. fave bookstore and tried to do research for my research paper, but all i could find was for stupid screen plays.. theres nothing dramatic to write about in my livejournal yet.. so yeah.. just wait til matt baxter wants to come back, then there'll be drama ... so ill try to keep up with this.. and oh, by the way.. thanks matt.. you rock! (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 5th, 2005
12:09 am	FIRST POST...(not even Ashley's)... Wow! I'm not Ashley. I'm Matt Herrmann, the one she loves so much. But I get to be the first post in her account and there's nothing anyone can do about it! Hi Ashley! You're sexy and awesome! *matt* Current Mood: Ahley...it's a mood Current Music: Ashley...the greatest hits... (4 Comments |Comment on this)